Marriage awaits me..

I can't believe my mother has even brought up the topic of marriage! I'm 14 in a fortnight and mother is already thinking about marriage? The topic of marriage has never really crossed my mind. It's an honor I don't dream about.... She tells me that a young man, Paris, wants to ask my hand in marriage. What happens if I do not like this man? What if we're completely different? Will marriage still await me with a man I do not love...?

If I do actually like this man, I guess I will marry him... if looking leads to liking, but if I do not, I will not commit myself to a future with someone with whom I am not in love with.  Really, I only want to make my nurse happy and she wishes to see me married. She's overjoyed at the idea that a man wants to marry me! I do not wish to disappoint her. I hope this man, Paris, is someone I can love; someone who I can spend my life with. I've heard of him once, now I am off to meet him tonight. Will my eyes be pleasantly surprised...?

I know that girls my age are already mothers, but I do not want to be like that. I want to marry someone I love; not someone I am forced to or have to grow to love. But like I said, I do not want to disappoint my parents and my nurse. Maybe Paris is a great young man, and that when our eyes meet, I will instantly fall in love. Oh, I do hope this is the case. Well, the guests have arrived and Paris awaits for my arrival. I do hope this is one happy night...